Ātma Jñāna Part - 3
“Ātma Jñāna”
Part - 3
When his turn came, he stood in front of the sādhu. “What brings you here?” asked the sādhu and the young aspirant spoke of his quest for self-knowledge. “We can certainly help you achieve your sought after goal,” said the sadhu. “However, every one that wants to learn of the Truth, a novitiate, must go through a probationary period, a trial period. During this training or studentship you will serve an apprenticeship to the master and follow his bidding unquestioningly before your initiation. At the end of the indentureship, a period of being a servant bound to service for a specified time, you will certainly be Self Realized. The scriptures prescribe that the indentureship period shall be twelve years long and it shall be the same in your case too. If you accept these terms, we can start this apprenticeship period as early as today.”
Our young aspirant agreed and a senior disciple of the sādhu made all the arrangements for his room and board. Having rested the night, he approached the sādhu for instructions. “Your task is very simple,” said the sādhu. “We have many cows here. Just go around and gather the cow dung and make cow patties. Set these cakes to dry and when dry stack them nicely in a shed. One of the disciples will show you where. After you complete this period of apprenticeship you shall be self-realized. You have my word on that.”
The aspirant did as he was tasked and twelve years went by at the end of which he did not think that he was self-realized! So he approached the master and said, “Sir, I have worked sincerely and diligently to complete my apprenticeship. Twelve years have now passed and I do not feel that I am any closer to the Truth and self-realization that you said I should have achieved.
“Something must have gone wrong,” said the master. “It has never happened before. I tell you what: for the next twelve years you tend to our bovines. Clean them, give them a good brushing, make sure they are free of ticks and that blood-sucking flies do not harm them. Feed the cattle cut grasses and other leafy greens and their fodder and hay regularly. Put fresh water in the troughs they drink from and make sure there are saltlicks placed throughout their pastureland. After you complete this period of apprenticeship you shall be self-realized. You have my word on that.”
The aspirant did as he was tasked and another twelve years went by at the end of which he did not feel that he was self-realized! So he approached the master and said, “Sir, I have worked sincerely and diligently to complete my apprenticeship. Twelve years have since passed and I do not feel that I am any closer to the Truth and self-realization that you said I should have achieved.
“That is so strange,” said the master. “Something must have gone wrong. It has never happened before. I tell you what: for the next twelve years you collect firewood from our vast estate, even from the forest. Cut them to size for our wood ovens and stack them neatly in the shed for kindling. After you complete this period of apprenticeship you shall be self-realized. You have my word on that.”
And so another twelve years went by. You can surmise what the outcome was.
The next task for the following twelve years was to manage the kitchen and dining halls. As a manager, he was to insure these were kept clean by his staff and make sure that all the visitors and guests had a wonderful dining experience. And thus another twelve years went by. You can surmise what the outcome was.
Our aspirant, now forty–eight years older, a sexagenarian, approached the master. The master heard his tale and said he realized what had not happened — the aspirant had not been initiated as a disciple! So he initiated our aspirant and said that he would immediately impart Self Knowledge.
And so he did. He said the same things as the sādhu the aspirant had first met as a young lad of twenty-four. (See: Part – 1.)
Our aspirant realized what the first sādhu had said: there was nothing beyond what the then young man had been told.
He slapped his forehead and said to himself, “I have been a simple fool indeed. I had the knowledge of the Self, the Truth, all along as that saintly person had said. I should have listened to him and meditated on the Truth just as the Upanishads state. My nature being a discontented and doubting person, I let my ego dictate things to me. I have wasted forty-eight years of my life!”